Clarity & Authenticity: Therapy of Choice

Post-surgery, drug-induced poetry.

The nights hurt the worse

Just had a panic attack from the pain.

Partner rolling up to the scene

He’s worked up, yelling my name.

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Calm down,

communicate!

Goddamn, I’m trying,

Let me first resuscitate.

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They say surgery hurts,

Well, it’s the days that aren’t so bad.

It’s being tied up at night,

Wishing this procedure was never had.

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It’s all for the best,

It’ll get better just wait.

Tomorrow is unknown,

Today, we resuscitate.

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Music playing,

chatter in the distance.

Sitting here in a compression chair

Music playing, wants to dance.

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They call this therapy

What if it’s really just a big machine hug?

Although hugging is therapy

Who cares if it’s a machine, saint, or thug.

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Underneath it all

We all just want to feel

Feel like we matter, in control,

Like we can always seal the deal.

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When in truth we are

Eating-shitting-feeling machines

Yet we have a prefrontal cortex

Our power center brain can be clever, keen.

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Can you override

That animal brain of yours?

Can you connect even the most mundane of tasks

To a higher purpose… every chore?

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There’s beauty in the simple

And the quiet moments usually speak the loudest.

We went from fight or flight to couch sitting.

No longer survival of the fittest.

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Anyone can seek comfort

Therapy comes in flavors galore

But are your actions therapy?

Or some self-deprecating bore?

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It’s boring to do easy

It’s lame to only exist

When you’re here… you’re here.

Why not give it your own twist?

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Goodbye for now,

It felt good to get thoughts out.

Told you I think in rhymes 82% of the time.

Living, breathing, doing is what this is about.

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Authenticity,

Not to be mistaken with who I am.

The past doesn’t authenticate us,

That’s something only time can.

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I’m authentic now,

Thinking like the person I’m becoming.

I like her.. names RC.

She’s got my whole body humming.

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Humble -

Not to be mistaken with who you once were.

It’s a new day…

And a damn good one at that, sir!

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Ma’am, madam,

mama sittaaaa!

Having surgery soon

May get me a margarita!

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Ha! I won’t.

I don’t drink.

But water is another story.

Fill the sink!

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Ha, part 2!

Don’t gulp from the sink

I only drink Kangen…

9.5 alkaline choice of drink.

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Only the purest

My love deserves the best

Yes I’m talking about me

Self before the rest.